The maker of the universe dream


Think of yourself in a higher way.
Think of yourself in a loving way.
Think of yourself in a forgiving way.
Think of yourself in a spiritual way.
Think of yourself in a grateful way.

Make this your way, and while in this way think of others in that way too.
The Maker of the universe made our hearts bigger so we can live and share so much of his dreams.

Dear God


Every time I turn back now I still don’t understand.
Dear God, was I just a winding path? An idle hand?
Someone who can just be forgotten easily?
And that I’m an empty page? A silhouette?

When did I lost the plot of everything?
I gave it all and never would I ever hold back on what I’m meant to give or needed from me.

Dear God, be on my side as you were to my ancestors, I want to recognize this world
For all it and I could become.
I want to see all of the parts as more than just their sum.
I want to know all of your love and all that it could be and I could be.

Dear God, Please don’t take what I love again, instead take me out of this infinite blue and evergreen.

I spent so much of my waking life thinking about you, for all my thoughts were to spend eternity holding you dear.
The years that have passed, it was half of my life, I can’t look away for they’re etched in my heart, it happened so fast.

Dear God, what am I destined for now?
To wander unto the desert of depression and fade away like an ancient carcass?
To lose myself in palest grey?

Dear God, did I take my last breath?
Did I waste it all and pulled the cord before the fall?

Every moment I could see the future when I looked right in your eyes.
Now it’s all that I can think about, and its hauntingly painful every time I turn away, I miss it. I miss us. I miss the glimpse of heaven that was you. I miss you.

Dear God I pray, call me home, for I am where I do not belong, I know it for I dream painfully of what I have lost.

Change


People change when they hurt enough that they have to change.

People change when they learn enough that they want to change.

People change when they see enough that they are inspired to change.

People change when they receive enough that they are able to change.

I hope your pain or whatever you’re going through changes you into the being the heavens placed you here to be.

Self reminder to find my breath.


I know you’re awfully tangled up in perpetual struggle and your heart is heavy and troubled by the gift you’ve lost, the haunting memories and overwhelming thoughts and emotions you’re braving, but I need you to deeply remember this, Nothing is meant to last.

I want you to do more than fight, I want you to have something to fight for because if you have something to fight for you will have something to live for, something to love.

Your life and everything will have meaning again. So pray, Meditate and Do and Surround yourself with people and things that heal you. Find your breath in these and you will breathe deeply and feel lighter again.

Find your breath, your life depends on it.

Depression


Rebuilding your life, that’s easy as long you have the will to live and that there’s days in your future. But when your mind has been hamstrung, the fabric of your existence gets bent and you get caged in a hole where its walls is engraved by memories of your past.
Because the mind replays what the heart cannot erase.


They will tell you there’s light in the end of the tunnel but the thing about depression is not a journey into the light but a battle of getting your strength, something that your reality may deny you if you’re alone.

Still I rise.


Still I rise. Still I am, The Healer, The Monk, The Poet, The Writer, The Dreamer, The Warrior, The Humble Student of Life, The Gift and what The Maker of Heavens and Love needs me to be.

Ameliorating my heart so my soul can be in peace, a celestial nature I used to thrive upon before I got tangled up in knots of goddess of feign. But first I need help from innate-self getting the mind stronger to the warrior I was raised to be. Prayers and meditation have been my breath and rosary, the saving root that I’ve been pulling to get out of this mental quicksand into a place of solace.

I’m reminded by my old writings that the people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, delights in your plight, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart and devote your soul and every fiber of being to them. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things that heaven meant for us.

Make every day count!!! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments and everything in it that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again.

Pray, Meditate and Love with best intentions. Remember who you are, A Gift. Root this in your heart.

Over a decade ago I wrote this for my future-self and to anyone who may need it but i knew one dark day I will need it the most, and today it has come back save me from the brokenness I am facing.


Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

They will break you or strengten you. They will save you or betray you. They will fill you with hope or abandon you. Some are ambivalent who will hate and love you at the same time, forgivw them for they only live to use people to fill the void in their mind and not the void in their heart. Some are compassionate and they will sacrifice to align with you the way you give them your heart and soul to align with them.

You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, coworker, long-lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger) but with the touch of God when you lock eyes with the right ones, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall and grow in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. And never be afraid to break your heart to savebtour soul.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count!!! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again.

Be strong to those who need you, be kind and gift to earth and everyone and everything in it, for you’re everything to someone who loves you. Be full of love always even when there’s no one to share it with. Love your life, your work, your body and the way you love.

Embrace your inner warrior


Part of you is Impervious to pain.
Parts of you need it.
Part of you is born from it.
Part of you is strengthened or weakened by it.


Part of you will carry scars of it.
Part of you will dwell or be governed by it or excel from it.


If you know this about yourself, then you hold Enlightenment of how to live the unbroken life.


Remember, it is not wise to make yourself vulnerable to something you can transcend.

If you look how far you’ve come you’ll see how you’ve borne it like a warrior.
So embrace this warrior and love as one.

Run with joy


People have their reasons why they are the way they are and do what they do.
When you dislike someone or hate them, it is not them who are bad, but you.


If someone likes to push the pace, let them be, it is their body that they’re pushing, you can join them and see what pain can do for you or you can control yourself, rather than being frustrated by them. Remember in a race, someone will always push it.


If someone runs with music or wears a jacket or something that it is odd for you, let them be, not everyone can be like you nor should anyone be like you. We are all different people with different abilities. Some peak from running a lot of miles and some find their fitness by running less miles. Some get get better by pushing themselves harder than others and some rely on a scripted course.

We can run together, some will be silent, some will be chatty, some don’t like being talked to so they can focus and know and listen to their body, and someone find their rhythm and peace while listening to music and some just don’t like small talk but it doesn’t mean they’re bad people, only our views create the bad in the things and people we don’t understand.

When you run, you run, and there will come a time you must silence every noise in your mind, sometimes you’ll use a memory or sounds around you, or the sound of your heart or footsteps or music to get in the zone and get you going.

Running, is not about judging others, or being frustrated bybthings you cannot control, but it is about expressing your strength while learning more about yourself, improving yourself.

Running is about investing on your well-being, both mentally and physically. So Run with joy.

Be good


Be good, and make it your nature, life will need you somewhere someday.
It’ll happen as a calling, a gift, a dream.


All I know is, it’s going to be the biggest or maybe the greatest day of your life.

Tap into the source of your strength


When the power of your core and the strength of your mind collides, it is then you begin to experience the pure sheer energy of outer body experience.

So my friend, from one warrior to another I want to you know that there’s a lot of feelings within you that wants to control your body, many of them flood and will overwhelm you from knowing or reaching your true potential, but a true warrior seeks to become one with the sources of their strength.

When you become one with your spirit, it becomes one with you.

Energy


There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow beings; true nobility is being superior to your former self.


If you believe in growth, then embrace this as your way of life.


I believe the meaning of life is to be the best version of yourself with every passing day, event and that which you call age.


Remember, you’re not your age, but your energy.

Look inside your circle of being, everyone in it are different ages, why you have them is not because of their age but because of their energy.

If their energy is bad you’ll not have them in your circle even if you share the same blood or lineage with them.
You are in the lives of those who embrace you and cherish you because of your energy.



We are made of energy, it’s what gives us growth, love, peace and trust, and if you use it wrongly it’ll give you loneliness, bitterness, anger, hate and so much more that will fill your future with uphill battles.

It’s in you and never away from you


What you seek is seeking you, so try to live with an open heart and an open mind.


Be excited about life and people you meet or have.


Embrace yourself deeply and passionately than you do with your fears or doubts.


Try to have courage, joy and peace and let them be that which that governs your life. This should always be the theme and fabric of your being.


Often remind yourself that you do not need much but only to do what you must do.


You’ll be surrounded or flooded with emotions, but also let logic do the same.


Chaos does exist, but it is wise to see them as imbalances, and you’ll simply find a way to bring balance in your life, it is the easiest way to find peace than going head first unto the Chaos to find what is already in you.

Live in your light


Not everyone can see the light in their heart like you do. May it continue to guide you in this unfurling of life.


If you’ve met their demons, let them not scare you, know that they’ll become angels once they learn to fly.


Let age humble them, and one day they’ll awake to embrace their souls energy to be kind and loving.
This is often our fate.


And if they fail, pray for them, be kind to them, or let them go, just don’t become miserablebecauseofthem. 🙏

Always go to the source to find your answer


If you seek to manage your stress, you must go backwards to the source of it and you’ll find the imbalance and it’ll be easier for you to create balance in your life, but if you keep going forward then you’ll only meet chaos, and struggle is all you’ll always see and feel like your life is made of.

When the branches of the tree starts to dry up, the problem is not on the branch but in the roots.

The dark place you see in your minds-eye is actually a reflection of the imbalance that is in your innate-self.

So work on how you rest, sleep, what you eat and drink, who you talk to and keepnin your circle and life, what kind of music or people advices you subscribe to.

It is your environment that cultivates or cages your energy.

If I could help you to begin untangling yourselfnfrom these knots of not knowing what to do, I’ll say to you to do, think, feel, remember, create, surround and dream of things, and people who excites you.
To warriors, excitement is the most powerful energy.

Always remember that you’re loved.
Root this in your heart.

Come out grown


It doesn’t take much to want something; the whole idea is one thought away. It takes a whole lot more than wanting to get anything good.

As I look back on my last 38 years, I see a lot of blanks that went unfilled. As hard as I believe I have worked, I left a lot on the table, walked away from plenty of challenges, and left much unsaid, undone, or unfinished.

I can sit here and say “never again!”, but honestly, it’s going to take more than one decision, one day, and one person to push even harder tomorrow than all the other days that came prior.

Sweeping statements looks old on paper, but no one can paint the splendour in the sky overnight. 38 years worth of habits are difficult to change, even if you see them, want them changed, and know they must be gone. Eventually you’ll change with time and reasons, life will assure that especially when you want something to last.

Change is part of your fate, don’t fight it.

Battles are fought everyday, on all fronts, in every way, and with many different outcomes. You win some, you may lose many more, but neither result matters nearly as much as the resolve to fight on. You can win a million battles and still lose the war. You can also lose a million battles and win the war.

Win or lose, today or tomorrow, keep hope alive and another chance will present itself. And you never know, tomorrow could be the battle to win the war, or lose it all over again.

Keep your head up, look further than you’ve come and beyond the peaks you’ve climbed, nowhere on them you were meant to settle. All were a gift, and so is everything if you look deeper on them with the right mindset.

Poem for her.


I wrote this in 2019 while on a beach in Hawaii. It’s actually the greatest feeling I’ve ever had and was able to capture. The breeze, the sound of the ocean, her grace and smile painted heaven for me, but unfortunately heaven is not for everyone, and I was just having a glimpse of it.

The poem from the deepest part of my heart and the highest point of my spirit goes on like this.

A gentle tune floats from my soul like a breeze to alert me that’s she’s the closest heaven I’ll ever be with. She dwells in the sight of my soul and the depths of my heart.

Swaying like a leaf in the breeze of love. She visits me in my thoughts and dreams all the way from my future that is in the moments I’m not with her.

Everything I touch and everything I dream inspires me to always be present and a gift to her.

I meet her every moment I close my eyes, someday I hope she’s all I see when I open my eyes, but often she is all I see.

Beneath the sun light of the stars, your face shines brighter than moonlight.

My beautiful love, your smile captivates me, your laughter infuses me with deeper love.

Truth is, I am crazy about you and this is something i have been praying for, the desire flows in my veins, guided by your voice I dream bigger dreams now.

When I miss you I feel like butterfly’s wings with stones holding it down. May you always remember my whole existence is you. And when I’m no more, remember to always love like I love you.

And above all, Make everything your gift.

#shmily

Choice


I’ve grown to learn that, in life don’t be an option but a choice. Your decisions in life should follow the same fate.

You mustn’t allow desperation and emptiness cause you to chose things blindly, for when the Sun rises up on your soul you’ll be compelled to experience things that drowns you in a well of painful feelings.

Have a heart that commits to the best


Take your energy from demanding from the world unto what can I give to the world.


How much joy you have in you, how much kindness you have in you, how much tolerance and strength you have in you, how much love you have in you. Let’s try to give that away to each other instead of giving away our fears, demands and control. Because what we give will continue to show up and goes on in your life.

Remember this, the most difficult times for many of us are the ones we give ourselves.  With same effort you can make yourself miserable or strong, the choice is yours. 

When you learn to accept instead of expecting, you have fewer disappointments.  Free your heart from hatred – so forgive.  Free your mind from worries – for the truth is most never happen.  Live simple and appreciate and cherish what you have.  Give more and expect less.

Be open and flexible without relying or investing on your walls and second guessing. Be good to yourself and ask help when you feel like you’re losing your mind or a gift that means a lot to you. Be kind, attentive, thoughtful and loving. Grow each day and fear less each day. And remember this, never hold back your love nor practice ambivalence.

Our roots grow upwards


Plants grow their roots towards the earth, but people we’re heavenly plants, meaning that our roots grow upwards towards the heart and deep onto it. But those roots need to be cared for, attended to like any plant.

Unfortunately for some people get to go through their entire life without the strength of their roots for their heart will break hundreds of times before it even has any chance to grow. Don’t be one of them.

Desire


Fear comes from desire of not wanting pain or suffering. If you root it in your heart, you’ll not learn many great things in life.

Desire is the source of your struggles, sadness and anger. Everything you’re feeling, you’re feeling them because of your desire.

We are full of energy


Our thoughts and feelings are pure energy. Whatever we think about consciously and subconsciously manifests in our daily life in one form or another.

This means that all the negative thoughts, self-limitations, and doubts we have about ourselves will hold us back from reaching our true self, the person we are born to be.